Take Your Confidence Back

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There are quite a few times that I know God is standing here beside me. As I talk to him about my life and my fears, I find peace. One day I remember being overwhelmed and nervous. There was a back and forth battle between what I was thinking and what God was trying to convey to me. This uncertainty and hesitance can be dangerous.

I had an upcoming interview. There had been many interviews in the past couple of weeks as I had just been laid off from my job of almost three years. I did all that I could on my end to be ready. I prepped as I had done time and time before. I remember walking up to the front door of the building where my interview was being held. I cringed at the thought of failing. As I touched the handle of the door, I heard God speak to me, "Lift your head up." I immediately did so and straightened my shoulders and walked tall into the building with confidence. I greeted the receptionist and continued to keep my calm and confident stance as I was asked to have a seat. Minutes passed, and I watched and studied current employees walk around me and do business. Negative thoughts started to creep up again. I began to second guess my ability to do the job let alone get through the interview in one piece. Doubtfully I whispered, "God what am I doing here?" I had no self-assurance left in me. "Help me," I said. A woman comes out of an office and walks over to greet me. I stand, and a wave of reassurance covers me. I hear God say, "Stand in your confidence. Don't let anything or anyone intimidate you. I walk with you. I am with you, remembering?

I smiled back at the woman, shook her hand, and followed her through a door and down a hallway. "I've got this," I said to myself. I've prayed for this, I’ve asked for guidance from Him, I've prepped and made myself professionally presentable, and I know this company. Check, check, and check! My confidence and self-esteem was mine for the taking. So I decided to jerk it back.

I entered that room and presented in my opinion my best interview to date. Did I get the job? Unfortunately, no I didn’t. I did find something that had suited me better weeks later and in that rejection I had decided to focus on the positive lesson that I acquired from it. Not only would I not let anything discourage me but I will not be afraid of failure. 

 I am always thankful for the courage, strength, and level head I acquire from God. At times, those qualities may stray, but I must always remember that I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me. I will not let doubts keep me from reaching my full potential and neither should you.

Fix What You Hate

I once woke up to a sermon on tv and heard one line that I will never forget about finding your calling.

 1.       Find out what it is that you dislike in the world or that bothers you

 2.       Fix it, and that’s your calling.

 Of course, for this to actually work, you have to combine the second part of this idea with your passionate. That’s it. It’s that simple. My husband does this with his films. He loves to watch, talk, write, and film movies. In his passion and love for movies, he has an intense dislike for particular film genres, bad acting, and poor quality especially if the film is was supposed to meet certain expectations. When this happens, I become the woman who is sitting next to the man who is yelling at the film screen about how awful the acting is. “OH, COME ON, JUST DIE ALREADY!” So what do I tell my loving but frustrated husband? I tell him to fix it. I ask him, what would you do differently? He’ll have a quick fix that’ll end in him saying, “It would be SO much better.” Then he’ll implement it in his next project.

 Finding what you should do and feel content in it can be easy. You should combine your passion and talents to help make a difference. Whatever you do make sure to stay focused on that goal. Stay on the right track and don’t let anything distract or discourage you. It’s easier to pick yourself up again than to quit entirely and find yourself lost.